Face The Strange

June 2020: Notes From Quarantine.

Barricades at St.George Terminal.

I’m still around, though there’s been some death in my sphere due to COVID-19. My maternal grandfather died in a nursing home, and an old friend from high school that I hadn’t been in touch with also passed. In both cases I wasn't able to attend any wakes or funerals; I’m not even sure if there were any for my friend, as he’d been in a bad way for some time. Suspect it was straight to Hart Island in his case. There's something to be said about having so many people die alone, horribly, with no dignity or grace during the transition from life to death. I’m still not quite in a space where I can speak those words, however.

Thankfully I’m working remotely so there’s still money flowing in; as I’ve been keeping fairly strict quarantine and not spending money at pubs or clubs, it’s been easy to save. I go to the LES roughly twice a month to shop, otherwise I stick to my local cornerstore and the fruit/veg stand down the hill. Thanks to Economy Candy’s mail order capabilities, I still have access to the finest dried fruits & nuts in NYC. Oh, and Flagship Brewery delivers freshly-brewed beer to my door!

Roses From The Garden.

When I do spend money, it’s been on music & merch from my fave musicians. Since they can’t tour or play live shows, the best way to keep the wolves from their collective door is to get on Bandcamp and buy their music, albums, shirts, etc. Every 1st Friday of the month Bandcamp waives its fees, so artists get 100% of all sales for that day. I’ve been picking up some amazing tunes, strengthening ties with musicians I respect, and getting turned on to new artists and independent labels. Recent purchases include the new Hermitess EP (with accompanying Tarot card), some experimental Euro-psych from Beyond Beyond is Beyond records, and two excellent CDs from Trent Halliday (he threw in a lovely handmade print on cardstock as well).


My current living conditions have made me incredibly grateful for the backyard garden. It’s been incredibly soothing to go out every morning and water the plants, pluck out some weeds, and be rewarded with strawberries, blueberries, chamomile, sage, lemon balm, mint and lavender. The rose bush out front was astounding this past June, and I’m looking forward to what the morning glories and nasturtium have in store later this Summer. We planted some tomatoes and peppers from seed, which has been slightly rough going (Mum put them outside too soon!) but I’ve been keeping a watchful eye on the wee buggers.

Strawberry Solstice Cordial and Elderberry Tincture.

I’ve been experimenting with infused tinctures and tonics during the current lockdown, with pleasing results. I typically make an elderberry tincture during the Winter months to stave off colds and flu; I’ve carried that onwards into the Summer due to COVID-19. I also make a Damiana tincture to alleviate moodiness (a few drops or a splash in water or seltzer does the trick, so it lasts for months). However, I stretched out a bit and steeped some strawberries from the garden in vodka for two weeks – the resulting cordial was ready by the Solstice, it was a beautiful blush pink color and smelled amazing. (The taste was too subtle, though. I’ll try again with store-bought strawberries and use the whole batch.) I also steeped blackberries and elderberries in bourbon as a lark, and was bowled over by how good it tasted after three weeks.

While I’ve been alone during quarantine, I definitely haven’t been lonely. I’ve been keeping up with friends via weekly phone calls (at odd ours, as one of them works nights), checking my DJ pals spin virtually on Mixcloud or Instagram, and keeping up with the social media a bit more than I previously did. Interestingly, the amount of personal emails I’m sending out has slowed to a trickle, and actual pen-and-ink letters has ceased entirely. That’s a shame, as I enjoy writing letters – and there’s at least one person I know who still enjoys receiving them! Perhaps later this Summer, I’ll send some out.

Social Distancing on the Staten Island Ferry.

Recently moves have been made to re-open bars and restaurants in NYC; while I completely understand the these small businesses desperately need the income, their patrons have (for the most part) been incredibly lax about social distancing and COVID-era hygiene. There’s already been a massive uptick in cases in other states that opened up for business, and that could well happen here. When you’re gasping your last breath – alone & hooked up to a dirty recycled ventilator – that fucking cronut-and-craft-beer combo won’t be such a delicious memory, Karen!

The Answer Is...

Speaking of Karens, I should note that there’s been a great deal of protests taking place worldwide, for very good reasons. (It should also be noted that due to wearing masks and generally looking out for each other while in the streets, there’s so far been no uptick in COVID-19 cases due to those protests.) Those of you who are out fighting for a better world: stay strong, stay focused on each other, and be very, VERY careful out there. The next six months are going to be brutal, and your enemy does. not. care. if you live or die.

The Trick Is To Keep Breathing.

April 2020: The Unexpected.

Mother Feather, Leap Year 2020.

Well, shit – when I said “The abyss yawns before us” in my last post, I wasn’t quite expecting a pandemic. Yet, here we are. And my beloved city is one of the epicenters (or main targets, if you’re into biological warfare conspiracy theories). This is a quick post to let you all know I’m still living, breathing.

I think I saw more gigs in the first two months of 2020 than I did in the entire year before, which is great because fuck knows when live shows will start happening again. Thankfully I took photos, and I’ve been spending my lockdown time working on a lot of phone pics that originally didn’t seem to make the grade. With a bit of patience and a discerning eye, I soon realized that I had some real winners, and you can see them over at my portfolio. I’ve also been scanning in B&W negatives; Ruby The Hatchet had nice things to say about this small batch from their gig at Saint Vitus back in June 2018.

The Mistress and The Wife.

I’ve also been using my new Nikon D3400, though it’s quite a different beast to my trusty N2000. The first gig I shot with it was also my last gig before the lockdown – Castle Rat at Planet X. It was my birthday weekend; I’m grateful to have been able to spend time with friends, doing things I love and being at places that bring me joy.

Spending time with friends looks very different nowadays. Some of my DJ pals and online buddies do weekend and/or impromptu sets on Mixcloud and Instagram, on top of their regular radio shows. A musician acquaintance of mine started up a no-contact wrestling league on IG. I’ve been helping out my favorite Park Slope bar, and supporting my beloved musicians & indie labels on a monthly basis via Bandcamp. Then of course, there are the wayward catchup calls at odd hours from old friends who work the night shift.

At this point it looks as though restrictions will be easing up before June, although some places have started to open up for takeout or delivery only. I’m concerned about another spike of COVID-19 cases hitting NYC, especially as people are getting so careless about masks and social distancing. Are refrigerated trucks full of dead bodies not enough of a reminder?

So Mote It Be.

Anyway, I’ll end this on a positive (if somewhat cryptic) note. I’ve also been using my time in lockdown to do some deeply intense spiritual work, and I’m starting to see definite changes for the better. Breathwork, oneiromancy, divination and herbcraft have played major roles in the powerful experiences I’ve been going through these past two months. While at times there’s been some heavy realizations and brutal truths to wade through, I’m committed to the process of becoming a stronger, wiser me.

December 2019: Ten Years Gone.

Richmond Terrace, Samhain Sunset.

2019 was a hard year, a suitable ending to a hard decade. The world is inarguably worse off than it was in 2009 (and things were fairly dicey back then, what with the Recession and all}, and there’s a sense that whatever passed for “normal” in one’s past can no longer exist in the present moment. The abyss yawns before us.

Now that I’ve got that last gasp of youthful nihilism out of the way, I can admit I’m in a much better place than I was ten years ago. Back in 2009 the graphic studio I worked at for over a decade shut down. It was Muslim-owned; as talented as our crew was, we never really bounced back from September 11th. I didn’t know how to even start looking for work, everything paid ridiculously low wages (THAT hasn’t changed!) and while I had yet to hit 40, I was already considered “old”. Now 40 is a long-faded memory: I’m not only gainfully employed but a breadwinner, and my family fully owns its home. (I paid the last mortgage bill during the Recession from my savings, when I had zero income.)

Castle Rat, St. Vitus, Samhain 2019.

Ten years ago I dyed my grey hair black in order to find work; today I dye it blue, and marvel at how much of my natural hair is still black. I was size 20 in 2009; yesterday I walked out of the house in size 14 trousers. Mind you, losing weight is not the goal – the body changes over time, and I’ve gone through some hard times.

Five years ago I took night classes at Baruch College for bookkeeping, and scored straight A’s. I moved away from Office Management – i.e. babysitting Millennials and their egos – and into Accounts Receivable. I now make roughly the same amount of money I made in 2009.

The Advertisers, Ponyboy, 5 Nov 2019.

One year ago I cast someone out of my life that I thought would be my friend forever, and learned some very harsh lessons about what friendship is. It requires focus, and presence; if someone gives you the same empty platitudes year after year, then the friendship has morphed into something more superficial and banal. I’ve made new friends in 2019, and kept some old ones. I even reconnected with a much-missed old friend this year!

Seven months ago I broke a particularly long spell of celibacy; one month ago I ended the connection. Another round of lessons learned, the most important one being that I have a great deal more to offer the world than I previously realized. Love is all around – no need to waste it.

Home...For Now.

It seems foolish to make future plans or promises in the times we’re currently living in; perhaps just showing up and being authentically oneself in the moment is enough to start with. The abyss yawns before us, but we can consciously choose to enter it instead of running away as if it will never catch up to us. Who knows what we’ll find once we step inside?

Breaking Radio Silence.

Angel of Anatomy, Leonor Fini, 1949.

No doubt about it, it’s been a rough year. I suspect many of us feel the same; 2019 has had some turbulent space weather (particularly in June & July), and 2020 won’t even have the benefit of Jupiter in Sag to cheer things up. I’ve undergone a tremendous amount of inner growth since last I wrote here, but am still dealing with outer stresses and turmoil. Hopefully this Fall will bring a turn of The Wheel towards the positive.

It’s not been all doom & gloom though! I’ve seen some great gigs and fascinating museum exhibits; invested in home renovations; cleared out some dead wood from my social life and cast people out of my life who didn’t appreciate my time, effort or energy. I purchased a new computer, a new digital camera, and am currently saving up for a new phone. And I’m currently being trained on a new ERP software that will vastly improve my current job situation (and prepare me for future ones).

Rest In Power, Gato.

I did a little cat-sitting back in February and May, helping out a new friend I made via my old local. Staying in a lovely Park Slope apartment with a sweet kitty was good for my head – a chance to get away from my usual surroundings, to fully embrace solitude and meditate on present and future moments. Gato was quite old; he sadly didn’t survive the Meat Grinder™ of the Summer. But I’m grateful for the time we spent together, and thankful for the opportunity to do some heavy inner work uninterrupted.

Other friends of mine are getting shit done this year! Dead Unicorn Ventures recently started up in Penzance, while Perp Walk and Freelance Fiends are still going strong. Another friend graduated from FIT, and is currently working on a poster series that powerfully combines esoteric concepts, comic-noir illustration and Swiss Modernist design.

Haul of Joy.

Lammas was pretty incredible: back-to-back gigs/vinyl release parties from Mother Feather and The Giraffes, the long-awaited release of Rosalie Cunningham’s new album, and the inaugural issue of Dykes Ink from the aforementioned Dead Unicorn Ventures. Also, a haunting and astounding CD/booklet musing on the 50th anniversary of the moon landing arrived in my letterbox that weekend.

Don't Forget to Listen to Music.

Can’t say for sure what the future holds in store – Uranus in Taurus is really proving the old adage “Make plans, & the Gods laugh”. But I persevere, do my best to stay grounded, and (most importantly) keep breathing.

At Long Last…Spring!

Perp Walk.

Just a quick update to let everyone know I’m still alive & kicking – the weather has been difficult and inconstant, but it looks like the cold temps are finally on their way out. Things are going well at my new job, and I finally got a chance to see my buddy’s band Perp Walk live! Sadly the iPhone takes really crap photos these days – planned obsolescence and all that. But I salvaged these pics for your perusal.

Left in The Attic.

I walked into Hank’s Saloon that night as Left in the Attic took the stage, and they absolutely blew me away. I was shocked to find out that these Bronx natives have been rocking out around town for 10 years already, they sound so powerful and fresh. Shame on me for not checking them out sooner!

Bunny Hirsch.

Perp Walk’s Bunny Hirsch and Roger Clark (well-known to locals as a reporter for NY1) added a guitarist well over a year ago. While I really enjoyed the No-Wave minimalism of their older sound, Joe O’Carroll brings a fuller, meatier vibe to the music. The metal aspects are more in the forefront, although Bunny’s deadpan vocals elude clichés.

After the gig, we sat around drinking cheap beer and catching up until ass o’clock in the morning. I’m so relieved that I’m now in a situation where I have both the time and energy to get out more and see live music!

2017: Survival of the Grooviest.

A New Look at an Old Devil.

We all know it’s been a rough year. There were some astrological curveballs in the mix – most notably The Great American Eclipse™– but Saturn’s shift into Capricorn just before the Solstice is perhaps the most important, and definitely the heaviest. This is where the rubber hits the road (or the shit hits the fan). Luckily I’m a child of Saturn via my Midheaven, so I’m an old hand at rolling with that particular planet’s changes.

I was half-heartedly considering a “best albums” update, but as my pursestrings were kept very tight during the second half of 2017, there’s lots of music out there that I didn’t pick up on. So instead I’ll briefly mention some releases that lifted my spirits this year.

Jane Weaver got lots of attention in 2017 – I’ve not purchased Modern Kosmology yet, but enjoyed her single The Architect. The names of critical darlings like Hawkwind, Can and Stereolab often get dropped around Weaver, yet a deep vein of knob-twiddly dad rock like The Alan Parsons Project and mid-period Mike Oldfield also runs through her work. Back when Jane & I were young, those guys were the antithesis of cool; nowadays, hipster kids clearly eat that sound up like so much kale and quinoa. Props to Weaver – she pulls it off better than most.

Wild Women.

Alison Goldfrapp and her eponymous band kicked out the (electronic) jams this year as well. Silver Eye is in the upbeat style of Supernature or Head First, though there are some moody/ethereal bits like Tigerman (which evokes Bryan Ferry’s later solo work beautifully). Sadly the band’s recent videos are blatant Jodorowsky ripoffs, but their May show at Brooklyn Steel was one of my top gigs of 2017.

An old headbanger friend turned me on to Myrkur, and I got a kick out of her latest CD Mareridt. To be honest, willowy blondes overdosing on runes and Scandinavian landscapes is NOT my usual jam. But Amalie Bruun pisses off Black Metal purists and sexist jerks with such glee that I can’t help but cheer her on. Even if she's just having a laugh, and Myrkur isn't everyone's cup of aquavit, surely Metal is all about doing your thing and paying the haters no mind?

Top 2 Albums of 2017.

The soundtrack to my 1st half of 2017 was Jennifer Crighton’s Hermitess, which conjures up winter chills, deep solitude and the quiet closeness of death. At times the album’s production reminds me of Marble Index-era Nico – stark, minimalist, real. Anyone who knows me knows I couldn’t stop raving about it! Crighton works on various musical & artistic projects, but hopefully another solo album is in the works.

Then in August, things heated right up with Ruby the Hatchet’s Planetary Space Child. The music’s full of heavy grooves, mind-blowing harmonies, choogling organ and blistering guitars…but Jillian Taylor’s vocals move things into another stratosphere entirely. (And she delivers the goods live!) This ain’t no good-time rock ’n’ roll, however; eerie, ominous and intense, it veers between brutal psychedelia and full-on prog, with a touch of NWOBHM to provide some leavening.

Extra Goods.

While other bands shared space on my stereo this year (Three Days Dark, Here Lies Man, and L.A. Witch), the above artists really wormed their way into my psyche. Their music inspired me to keep going and stay focused despite all the chaos and misery. I thank them (and you) for helping me survive 2017, and giving me the strength to kick serious ass in 2018!

Saturday, 6 May 2017: Belated Beltane, with Books.

Just a quick update to let everyone know I’m still alive and kicking. I didn’t get a chance to properly celebrate Beltane this year — though handling the packing (& unpacking) for a large office move does tie into themes of growth and fertility (with regards to new business). I’ve also started my final bookkeeping class, which will end at the Summer Solstice…yet another example of the Magick inherent in the mundane.


In between studying and moving boxes around, I’ve been checking out some autobiographies: art sex music by Cosey Fanni Tutti, Le Freak by Nile Rodgers and Bowie, Bolan and the Brooklyn Boy by Tony Visconti. While the Rodgers book is a bit superficial for my tastes (and sadly hasn’t been updated to include his dealings with Daft Punk), the other two are meatier and more gripping reads. Once class is finished, I hope to discuss my thoughts about them (as well as the Peter Steele & Lita Ford bios I read a few months back) a bit further.

2016: The Shitshow Recedes.

El Gato Negro.

Well, THAT sucked! So glad 2016 is OVER.

It was ridiculously stressful, full of heavy space weather, and a lot of people died. Also, geopolitics took a major turn for the worse, in ways that directly affect me and those I care about. The photography situation is locked in a dismal holding pattern; basically, I need to break down and get a digital camera (more on this in a later post). I look and feel like I’ve aged five years instead of merely one.

7 Train Post-its.

Yet some incredibly positive things also happened in 2016. I traveled to California in March and caught up with one of my favorite people. Another friend of mine received some much-deserved recognition for her writing and storytelling skills. I started a certificate course in bookkeeping: while I’m rather broke and highly sleep-deprived in the short term, it’s a Grade-A investment in my future (literally – I’ve earned straight As so far, with one class left to go!). I’m still employed, and even got a raise back in the spring. And the ankle’s getting better!

Top Tunes 2016.

Tons of brilliant music and fantastic gigs happened last year – indie labels like Beyond Beyond is Beyond and Riding Easy Records consistently delivered the goods, and bands from near (MOTHER FEATHER, Ruby the Hatchet), far (Purson, Blues Pills) and all areas in between (White Mystery, Black Mountain) kicked major ass. Check out Old Time Religion Radio Hour’s final BBOX Radio episode for an aural sampling of the goods 2016 had to offer. Note: it’s a four-hour show! If you’re pressed for time, scroll down a bit and click on some of those sweet, sweet band links. Otherwise open a bottle of whatever, kick back and let the music flow.


I even managed to check out a couple of exhibitions (such as Julian Rosefeldt’s MANIFESTO starring Cate Blanchett) and read quite a few biographies (Peter Steele and Bernie Sanders being the highlights – Brooklyn represent!) in between all the studying and number-crunching. In fact, I’m still plowing through the humongous used book haul acquired during my Cali trip; there’s translations of the Upanishads and the Homeric Hymns to sink my teeth into this year.

Unicorns are Real.

Finally, the Second Avenue Subway is open for business (up to 96th Street, at least). Any Native New Yorker will tell you that the Second Avenue Subway has always been a fantastical notion that got lots of money thrown its way but would never, EVER, happen in anyone’s lifetime, yet here it is. While technically the Q train starts running up 2nd Avenue in 2017, The MTA threw a big party on 30 December that coincided with a good friend’s birthday. After a festive meal at Heidelberg, we checked out the gleaming steel, the sparkling tile, the stunning artwork (Chuck Close is featured on the 86th Street stop), the bright blue subway cars and the London Underground-style escalator that seemed to go on forever. There was swag: I scored a classy black tote bag while the birthday gal snagged a baseball cap, and we both got Metrocard holders. While obviously this is another step down the hypergentrification trail, we were in awe of the fact that…it’s real. The Second Avenue Subway is no longer a shared joke among locals, but actually a thing that exists.

So while the macrocosm was horrendous, dangerous, and perfidious on various levels in 2016, my personal microcosm showed some serious improvement from previous years. Life’s been hard, but it’s also been good. I intend to keep that upward trajectory going as best I can in 2017, and hope that things get better, easier and safer for all of you in the coming year.

Tuesday, 2 February 2016: Milestones.

Ann knows how to rock.

Today (2nd February) is Imbolc, or Candlemas; it’s also the first anniversary of my having steady, gainful employment after a long period of zero income. It’s easy to nitpick about one’s job, to fuss over what could be better or would seem more comfortable, but in this day and age, I'm more into dealing with reality. I’m lucky; it’s still an incredibly rough market out there and so many skilled, talented people continue to fall by the wayside. I’m hanging tough.

Many of you checked in with me to see how things were going after Winter Storm Jonas: We had about 3 feet of snow ‘round my neck of the woods, and it took lots of shoveling, but everyone on my block chipped in and we pulled through. I made some serious headway against the snow that Saturday, with some (im)moral support from the Old Time Religion Radio Hour’s Lemmy tribute, but my ankle gave out on the Sunday. I did the right thing and rested, and I’ve got a couple more awesome milestones to celebrate:

Liz knows how to roll.

– I’ve started wearing regular shoes (as opposed to the one pair of good sneakers or the other pair of snow boots) this week, and there’s no soreness, swelling or pain.

– I took my first subway ride into Brooklyn since my accident on Friday the 29th of January, to check out Mother Feather at the Knitting Factory. There was some definite trepidation, as stairs are still not my strong point! But I made it there and back thanks to strong coffee (and Thin Lizzy on the cafe stereo!), good friends, old haunts and some blistering Rock ’n’ Roll. Shot 4 rolls of hi-speed film, we’ll see what comes of it.

Monday, 20 April 2015:
All She Had Was The Blood On Her Hand.

Storylandia 15.

I have ideas for longer blog posts percolating in my head, and accompanying photos quietly chilling in my Pixelmator folder, but sadly no time to sit down and get writing and coding. So here instead is a brief post to celebrate a friend’s good fortune.

Earlier this month Wapshott Press released Storylandia 15; the featured author this time around is the phantasmagorically fabulous Julie Travis, with five tales of atmospheric, vibrant and thought-provoking slipstream horror. Her work is terrific, in that it’s both well-crafted and inspires absolute terror. She’s been included in in various anthologies, and she’s done some self-publishing, but as far as I know this is the first literary journal issue specifically dedicated to her work...and I’m seriously fucking proud of her. Rock on, Julie!

Sunday, 22 February 2015:
Back on the Boat.

To quote the much-missed Gary Moore, sometimes I feel like I’m back on the streets again. Or, in my particular case, back on the boat. I started a new job earlier this month, which means I once again join the commuter class in the daily Manhattan to-and-fro.

Dirty Sunrise.

Things are slightly different this time around. First off, my workday starts at 8AM; this means I have to get up and out of the house while it’s still dark. It’s taken me roughly two weeks to adjust to the new schedule, but so far it’s working out. I’m making the transit connections I need to make and getting in on time, and there’s the nice perk of watching the sun rise as I ride the ferry boat each morning.

Secondly, NYC has been having a vicious cold spell that started with Winter Storm Juno (she blew through town during my second interview) and has persisted all month with temperatures in the single digits and constant inches of snow to shovel. Once I found out I got the job, I bought myself a pair of snow boots; a good chunk of my first paycheck was quickly spent on warm sweaters and thermal layers, to keep hypothermia at bay.

Ice Floes on the East River.

Note to conspiracy theorists: the coldest days of the week have consistently been Mondays and Fridays, except for last week – Monday was a holiday, so Tuesday was colder than a witch’s tit instead. Veteran of the Psychic Wars, indeed! And this past Friday was so damn chilly that there were huge chunks of ice floating in the East River; they kept clogging up the ferry boat’s motor, nearly leaving us stranded by the Statue of Liberty.

But I persevere. I keep leaving my house each day, walking down the hill to catch the bus, riding the ferry as the sun rises, running up Whitehall Street to Bowling Green and taking the train uptown. It’s worth it. I enjoy my job, I’m doing what I want to do and I’m earning good pay. Besides, Spring will come soon enough.

Sunday, 21 December 2014:
A Bookish Yule.

I was hoping to send out my usual holiday cards this month – handmade, with a photo taken during the year gracing the front. Sadly, my beloved inkjet printer of nearly 10 years died earlier this month (logic board failure) and I can’t purchase a new one until 2015. So I’ll satisfy the curiosity of my loyal readers and post some photos here instead.

About five months ago a good friend of mine read Colin Wilson’s The Occult, and found it quite a rewarding experience. I had read a blogpost on Wilson written earlier by another acquaintance, and remembered that I had a hardcover copy of my own lying about the house. Funnily enough, I purchased it at a yard sale back in the ‘80s for $6 – a fucking STEAL. (Also picked up a mint-condition copy of Buckingham Nicks that same day for $4! Good times, good times.)

I decided to give The Occult a re-read, and found that even after 4 decades it was still enjoyable and illuminating (yet refreshingly lacking in “woo”). I promised Julie a photo of the dust jacket, but never got around to sending it until now. Here ’tis, along with three other esoteric hardcovers from my personal library:

Front Covers.

Robert Graves’ The White Goddess is somewhat notorious, but I consider that reputation unfounded. The book is about poetry, NOT Witchcraft; it’s idiotic to blame Graves if some NeoPagans gave his flights of fancy new wings back in the ‘60s and ’70s. Yet many current polytheists (and historians) get very bitchy about TWG, and it’s out of favor these days. Your loss, kids! I bought this copy from Herman Slater at Magickal Childe (19th Street between 5th & 6th Aves) back around 1986-7.

Back Covers.

Kurt Seligmann returned to the forefront of my attention this past Summer (around the same time that Julie & I were discussing Wilson, in fact) via a lecture on 20th Century esotericism featuring Pam Grossman and Christina Oakley Harrington. Seligmann is better known as an artist than a writer; he was part of André Breton’s Surrealist group. Magic, Supernaturalism and Religion (previously The Mirror of Magic) was his only book. Got this copy at Weiser Books (24th Street and Lexington Ave) during its closing sale…early ‘90s, if I recall correctly?

A Lurid Double Spread.

Finally, Papus’ Tarot of the Bohemians was part of a haul from a secondhand bookstore in Albany, NY during a brief (and difficult) stay in 1991. For about $20 I scored this hardcover, a book on the Etruscan language, the Wilhelm/Baynes version of the I-Ching (also hardcover) and an archeological study of Nineveh. Seriously, I’m a great person to have on hand when book shopping… While I might re-read this in a month or so, I recall with some distaste that the last couple of chapters (“For the Ladies!”) consist of a desultory set of divination instructions, assuming that womenfolk are too delicate/dumb/whatever to handle the rest of the book. Ah well, it’s a product of its time.

Have a fantastic holiday season, peeps! See you all in 2015.

Friday, 17 October 2014:
Rock A Little.

The Key.

Checked out the opening of 24 Karat Gold, an exhibit of Stevie Nicks’ self-portraits using Polaroid cameras and film, earlier this month. It was a far superior presentation to the Blondie/Debbie Harry exhibit, even though both were shown in pop-up spaces. The Harry exhibition aimed for a raw, punk aesthetic but wound up looking weak and sloppy. Shame, because there were some incredible photographs that truly deserved attention. 24 Karat Gold was put together by Morrison Hotel Gallery, who specialize in just this sort of thing and know exactly how to make rock stars look good.

The space on Mulberry Street was deeply minimalist: stark white walls, with enormous photos in white frames. The only other accoutrement were large vases filled with gold ribbon and topped with clusters of maroon and yellow flowers. They might have seemed tacky in more cluttered surroundings, but instead made a perfect counterpoint to the golden tones and dark red highlights of various prints on show.

She wore some influences on her sleeve – two of the prints were named after Alphonse Mucha, and Julia Margaret Cameron’s style could be seen reflected in many of the photos. The Polaroid camera was still a very experimental format in terms of art and portraiture when Stevie started doing this. I’m reminded of the cover for Peter Gabriel’s 3rd album, and the series of polaroids taken and manipulated by hand to disturbing effect.

The various articles and reviews that preceded the opening suggested a sort of paean to narcissism – “Stevie’s Selfies”. That says more about the intended audience for those articles than the actual impressions the photos provide. While there’s no chronological or narrative order, 24 Karat Gold documents what living the Rock ’N’ Roll lifestyle is like, how it feels to focus all one has into making music and going out on tour. The curves and lines of Stevie’s face repeat in permutations across the walls, showing the cold loneliness of the open road, the drugs and hard living, the paradox of having too much time on one’s hands when time always threatens to run out on one’s career. The photos don't scream “LOOK AT ME!!!” so much as intone “This, too, shall pass.”

Stevie was already in her thirties when she embarked upon her solo career (in tandem with Fleetwood Mac); it’s easy to forget how ridiculously successful she was, and how hard she had to push herself — and those around her — to keep the juggernaut rolling. By this point in the game she was a businesswoman as well as a musician. On a more prosaic level, it makes sense that she'd photograph herself in various getups, take the pics to her record label and say “THIS is the image I want to project for the next album/tour/whatever, let me know what the budget is and how we can make it work”. Although Stevie mentions that she “never really thought anyone would ever see these pictures”, many of them DO come across as prototype ideas for album covers, tour program interiors or magazine shoots.

Diamond 3_Smoke.

My favorite section of the exhibit was the juxtaposition of two prints in a corner: Diamond 3 (Bella Donna) shows a fresh-faced Stevie without makeup and hair pulled back, while Smoke evokes a dark, neon-lit night owl, all sunken eyes and frizzed-out hair. (Stevie closely resembles Cherie Currie in this photo; it has a very Glam Rock, Sunset-Strip ambience.)

The NYC exhibit is now at Morrison Hotel’s main space at 116 Prince until the end of October, and there’s a concurrent exhibit in West Hollywood that runs until the 21st. If you’re a Stevie fan, you’ll fucking love it; if not, there’s still something to be gained by viewing the portraits and seeing what that life was like from her own visual perspective.

Monday, 22 September 2014:

Cemetery Gates.

Shot these a couple of months ago at a twilight walk through Green-Wood Cemetery; as the sky was overcast, I used a solarize filter to jazz them up. Sadly there were no monk parakeets around...

It seems the cemetery is partnering with the Brooklyn Historical Society to provide moonlight tours, catacomb cocktails and even yoga breakfasts! That last link may come across as gentrifying bullshit, but there's actually a precedent for meditation amongst the dead.

Green-Wood at twilight.

There's also a Green-Wood Cemetery app, if that’s your thing. One last semi-related link: This Mortician Thinks You Should Spend More Time With Corpses. Interesting stuff, but for now wandering around Green-Wood will do me just fine.

Friday, 2 May 2014:
The Oath.

The Oath

The Oath broke up this past week, and I’m bummed out about it. Guitarist Linnéa Olsson sent out a mass email thanking fans for their support, and:

“Since our album is now released, it’s time to let you know the band is over—and has been for quite some time. See you in the future.”

A rather minimalist goodbye...no muss, no fuss. But their debut album dropped about a month or so ago, and they were slotted to play gigs with Uncle Acid and the Deadbeats (Holy Shit what a bill!) along with some summer festivals. The most recent interview with vocalist Johanna Sadonis gave little warning that trouble was afoot (although she did mention the gigs were cancelled for “personal reasons and we can’t really speak about it”). What went wrong?

Full Disclosure: I haven’t picked up the album yet, although I enjoyed their single immensely. They have a very classic Danzig/NWOBHM vibe that works for me, with a hint of hard psych/garage deep in the mix. I heard some bad reviews of the album via Twitter; other online reviews seem more positive. I still plan to check out the album & decide for myself, once some money rolls my way. (Soon!)

There are two things I’ve noticed about The Oath that are problematic, and therefore likely causes for their breakup. For one thing, they don’t have a dedicated rhythm section—they’ve often depended on friends, studio musicians and guys in other bands (most noticeably Simon Bouteloup, currently rocking out with Kadavar.) That not only complicates things when it comes to booking gigs and studio time, but also makes it difficult for a band to consolidate its sound. Playing with the same people over time allows musicians to feel each other’s grooves and know each other’s style, building a camaraderie that can’t exist when drummers and bassists get switched out every few months.

The second thing I’ve noticed with the Oath is that they both have full-time jobs—the band is not their main focus. Linnéa is a journalist for multiple rock magazines and Johanna works at a booking agency. Now, on one hand it’s really smart on their end to have multiple income streams and not just depend on one thing; on the other, full-time work only leaves so much time for being in a band. Either it’s a hobby or it’s a going concern. If things take off there’s gigs, promotion, more studio time, a whole whirlwind of activity that might not, in the end, actually make all that much money. Maybe the two of them looked very hard at their financials and decided The Oath was a losing proposition. Maybe one wanted to take it further and the other didn’t, or couldn’t. We’ll never know unless they decide to talk about it.

Rock ‘N’ Roll has always been a risky business. I wish both Linnéa and Johanna the best of luck and hope they find their way back in the game—separately or together.

Sunday, 23 March 2014

How delineate the wretch whom with such infinite pains and care I had endeavored to form? - Mary Shelley, <em>Frankenstein</em>

I wrote a bit about my birthday visit to the New Museum over at the blog, and uploaded some photos of the interactive/collaborative section of the exhibit to my portfolio, but here I’d like to show a couple of Pawel Althamer’s figurative works. His mixed-media sculptures were life-size, reminding me of golems or what Mary Shelley originally had in mind when she wrote Frankenstein. I appreciated the painstaking intricacy, but let’s face it—they were creepy as fuck.

Yet there was one statue that I really enjoyed, his most recent self-portrait.

Pawel Althamer, <em>Self-Portrait</em>, 1989/2013 alternate view of Althamer's <em>Self-Portrait</em>

There was a sense of calm and placidity in the face, and I loved the contrast of dark leather skin (or perhaps a darker wax? Many of the other figures had wax outer coverings) under bits of bright faux-marble stitched together to create a peplos-like garment.

The figure was incomplete, hovering quietly like a ghost.

Monday, 17 February 2014

This Wall Requires Your Attention.

Took this shot back in October on route to a lecture on dream telepathy, with Dr. Stanley Krippner as the guest speaker. He's rather advanced in age, but still sharp as a tack! I enjoyed hearing his firsthand accounts of the Dream Lab experiments at Maimonides Medical Center. Some of the original test subjects from the 1960s were in attendance, and their reminiscences about their time in the Lab—as well as how their lives were affected long after the experiments ceased—were fascinating. Psi experimentation took a severe downturn here in the States by the '80s & '90s, but is carrying on in Europe, Latin America and parts of Asia.

The lecture wasn't held in the usual Proteus Gowanus space, but at the Gemini & Scorpio loft instead. While the room was quite nice (there's some pics at the link), the lecture audience skewed much older than the party crowd G&S usually draw in; there was some quiet grumbling about the steep, rickety stairs. But everyone had fun for the most part, and the lecture was very informative.

Monday, 23 December 2013

Kirlian Fingertips

I originally posted this Kirlian photograph of my fingertips earlier in the year, and wanted to bung it back up on the site. I attended a lecture by Shannon Taggart on the subject of Kirlian photography, and she was kind enough to take this pic afterwards.

Sunday, 8 December 2013

I've been having some incredible dreams lately, very lucid. Many of them take place in a Gowanus brownstone where I used to live back in the '90s, in various states of disrepair and abandonment. (In waking life, the brownstone is under new ownership and in fantastic shape -- from the outside, at least.) I spent my formative adult years in that top-floor apartment and had many good times there, which may explain my sadness at the state of the place in my dreams. It's as if my deeper mind knows that I can never return there, but feels a keen attatchment to the apartment and refuses to let go. Hmmm...something to work on!

I should look into creative visualization exercises revolving around "psychic temples", and make an new inner home for my dream self.

Saturday, 12 October 2013

I'm not keen on the recent trend in live concerts where a band or performer will play a specific album in its entirety, from the first cut to the last, without deviation. It's complacent, killing the spontaneity that's central to a live performance.

One of the highlights of a live gig is hearing how songs from different albums, different eras of a band's career, can be juxtaposed together in myriad ways to create a fresh, new aural experience. Just playing an album from start to finish is like saying the music is preserved in aspic, unchangeable and static.

Fuck that—it's boring! Far better to switch things up and leave people wondering what comes next.